We Are So Dead
Sometimes it seems like whatever you do, nothing makes sense. Any choice you make turns out to be a waste. Every freak out you have seems to be unnecessary. Every conversation you have had in your head that has communicated how you felt about somebody or something has always turned out to be not what you expected or wanted.
Sometimes I wonder if my life is really true and random. Even taking into consideration all the odds of things turning out to be 50 / 50, your way or something else, somehow everything you want or think would happen, almost always turns out to be the other way. At that point, you have to start questioning the reality and randomness of things.
If the odds were actually 50/50, at least once, whatever direction the conversation went in your head, it would have actually gone the way you wanted. But, the reality is, most of the time, it ends up being something else.
Honestly, how many times did you have a De Ja Vu and said: “no way, it actually turned out exactly how I imagined it would”?
I am not making any statements, I am just merely making an observation.
Most of the people follow rules, adopt beliefs, follow unwritten suggestions of what is right or wrong. Some question things. Some just do whatever. However, most of the people don’t even live. They are so consumed by what other people would think that all decisions they make are always based on what would others do and less on what would make them happy.
I guess, the biggest problem the society has today is the inability to determine what makes them happy. People are more concerned about the judgment of others and less about following their dreams and choosing the path that brings joy into their hearts.
Knowing that you have an undetermined amount of years or months or days or even hours to live, people still choose other people’s opinion over their own happiness. You just want to fit in and not be judged, you want to be accepted for who you are, don’t you?
It is almost like being dead. If you can’t follow your heart, if you can’t enjoy what you do, if you can’t be yourself, if you can’t love the person you fall in love with, if you can’t follow your dreams, you might as well be dead already.
The world is like an ant hill. Every single ant has its job already pre-determined. It was trained to do just that – to benefit the colony. Same goes for human beings. For the society, community, province or state or district or country to do well, there is a need for certain positions that need to be filled.
You always need people who do crapy jobs – cleaning, garbage removal, farm work, you need people to do middle-class jobs – clerk jobs, consultants, bankers, tellers, cashiers, teachers, rig workers, farmers, analysts, and etc, and then we have business owners, and then you just can’t live without the rich people who own the top of the wealth in the world, CEO’s, big pharma’s, oil & gas, manufacturers, mafia, and etc.
The bottom line is – you need all that for the society to be able to function. The Truth is, the society needs you to function but you do not need the society or its rules to be happy. If you play the game, you might be dead inside even before you actually die.