He Beat Me Up Pretty Good
Today I was reminded that there is so much evil in the world I live in. Not that I didn’t know or wasn’t aware but just, as always, when something happens right in your face, you are forced to acknowledge the fact and face it.
“So many heartless people”, I thought to myself as I was bleeding in my basement. You think you know somebody but, most likely, you don’t.
Sometimes you might wonder, how come for every 10 good people, there is this one who doesn’t deserve to be called “human”.
Today I was reminded again what unconditional love is. I saw terror in my little boy’s eyes when he scratched me to get away from bad memories, bad experience, the terror that a harmless folded carpet reminded him of.
It doesn’t take a university degree to figure out – somebody had hurt him before he came to our house. My eyes teared up. Not from deep bloody wounds in my forearms but from a thought about what could have happened to my little kitty to make him so skittish.
Cats love tunnels and boxes but my boy is avoiding most of them or is extremely cautious and never fully gets in if the box is tight or if you try to put him in there.
I know, karma is a bitch and I can fully rely on her to pay back with all the goodness she can come up with to repay for whatever the person did to him. My bloody arms are just a reminder to love and give him a safe place to grow old. We will figure this out and put it behind us.
My boy might have beaten me up pretty good and he might have made me bleed but he also reminded me that I have a choice – to become a part of the solution by not turning a blind eye.
My boy also reminded me that there are people out there who will inflict pain onto others to get away from their own internal pain and there are people out there who enjoy hurting animals and people because they get joy out of it.
Even though my first reaction is anger, I choose to rely on Karma to figure out who deserves what because I do not have time to hate and waste my precious life on people like that. I have better things to do. Things like earning trust and love of my little boy and sharing precious moments of my life with him and his adoptive sister.
I could waste my life by focusing on anger and that way also waste my TODAY. I choose to let go of the past and build a better future by living every moment today.
There are other good people who will come for those who deserve to be punished for their wrong doings and animal abuse.