These beliefs might create a bit of emotional discomfort but they usually disappear faster than they show up. The reason one doesn’t acknowledge them is: first, we choose not to; second, there is no need; third: we are not even aware of their existence.
When you look at a larger picture, these little occurrences are insignificant and you just do not give a penny about it. However, if you take a plunge and look at all those little episodes at once, then “I will be damned” situation reveals itself.
And, yes, I did take a plunge the other day and I was not impressed with myself.
There is always something in our past that we want to forget. You might have removed yourself from that unhealthy environment – relationship, family, society, group, friendship and etc., you might have spent sleepless nights crying, thinking, and letting go.
You internally burn that person you do not want to be and you rebuild yourself from ashes. You cut off ties with people, friends, family, group, you leave that house, town, city, state/province or even country and you find new friends, choose your new family, and develop new interests. You become somebody you always wanted to by changing from within and introducing outside forces that facilitate growth and blossom of a new you.
And when you think you have it all figured out and under control, something or someone triggers an emotional reaction you thought seized to exist long time ago. You might have rebuilt yourself from ashes but that’s the beauty of ashes, they contain bits and pieces of inerasable memories.
These flashbacks happen rarely but they do happen and they leave a bitter after taste…